While these emotions are still raw, i thought i should document them for us, as the last piece of puzzle.
Love like locked-horn , love like falling snow.
Oh, where do i, where should i begin with ?
Filled, adventured, rolled, bruised with the love experience for the 558 days, or even more, our views might be much broader now with varied perspective.
For the starters,
thank you, thank you for being -
the man that I'm madly in love for the past year(s) ,
the man that loved me and chose me over another one (lol) ,
the man that endured , gave all the tolerance possibly as much so far in your stages of life,
the man that have that soothing effect and wanting to give me the best of the world ,
the man that i took it as my first love in adult life, making me feel that anything is in fact, possible.
i appreciate the continuous effort you gave onto us, and me. they will never be forgotten as they have well taught me , indirectly rooted in me and stayed clear.
i appreciate the continuous effort you gave onto us, and me. they will never be forgotten as they have well taught me , indirectly rooted in me and stayed clear.
For the first time , i feel rather shaky and unsure of my ability of love.
...
not by any means, not by any measures.
Tonight, i can write the saddest lines, to think i do not have you, that i have lost you.
I have pushed you away for the other lucky woman in your life, for god's sake i have remembered that. Prior to I'm not good enough for you, for working a year or more ( likewise you think , not hard enough ) , to save you, to completely own you wholeheartedly and win you from the other one , for not being graceful and that sweet little girl who able to give you the feeling of one of the best of the kind.
...
not by any means, not by any measures.
Tonight, i can write the saddest lines, to think i do not have you, that i have lost you.
I have pushed you away for the other lucky woman in your life, for god's sake i have remembered that. Prior to I'm not good enough for you, for working a year or more ( likewise you think , not hard enough ) , to save you, to completely own you wholeheartedly and win you from the other one , for not being graceful and that sweet little girl who able to give you the feeling of one of the best of the kind.
"What i love the most about surfing is that it's my first love, it's the first thing i can remember being consumed by."
Finally, it's here.
The process will be tough, gruelling, heartbreaking , its definitely not to meant easy for me.
Last but not least, thank you my dear, for simply everything .
we learnt , we realise , we moved on and i love you, good bye.
With all the well-wishes.
Hence, love is not a possession , love is to set free.
“There’s a lot of reason to question things in life. Like, you just wake up and realise, why am I? There’s a lot of things that we cant understand as of yet and probably will never understand. The only probable truth in life is Love.”
To both of us -
Falling back to love after the first heartbreak , the second , and the consecutive... is something require a conscious decision. It takes courage to do this, by putting the trust again . Before love comes trust, you trust that as this person, you place the trembling heart on his hands, will handle it with utmost care and delicacy. That she will hold it tightly and gently at the same time, she wont let it fall and hurt it. That you understand the profundity of the exchange is taking place.
The quarrel , fights , arguments .. neither of us willing to set aside the fucking pride long enough to be the first to admit it. And i will wish i could be different, ditch the head-strong part of mine , tied to a more gently side for you . I have sincerely wished and hoped that you would changed (at least the part that i most care) for me , and i have would change or refine anything for you , but i have learnt, that was you and that are you , that i need to accept. In the deep down bottom of your heart , there is something we cannot deny , the room that save for the other one. I have tested your tolerance for change , the feeling of disoriented , having the better understanding of what fits into our relationship,
“There’s a lot of reason to question things in life. Like, you just wake up and realise, why am I? There’s a lot of things that we cant understand as of yet and probably will never understand. The only probable truth in life is Love.”
To both of us -
Falling back to love after the first heartbreak , the second , and the consecutive... is something require a conscious decision. It takes courage to do this, by putting the trust again . Before love comes trust, you trust that as this person, you place the trembling heart on his hands, will handle it with utmost care and delicacy. That she will hold it tightly and gently at the same time, she wont let it fall and hurt it. That you understand the profundity of the exchange is taking place.
The quarrel , fights , arguments .. neither of us willing to set aside the fucking pride long enough to be the first to admit it. And i will wish i could be different, ditch the head-strong part of mine , tied to a more gently side for you . I have sincerely wished and hoped that you would changed (at least the part that i most care) for me , and i have would change or refine anything for you , but i have learnt, that was you and that are you , that i need to accept. In the deep down bottom of your heart , there is something we cannot deny , the room that save for the other one. I have tested your tolerance for change , the feeling of disoriented , having the better understanding of what fits into our relationship,
Because there's no rights and wrongs at this point, it is a real eternal struggle.
Your subsequent love will be far more amazing than the previous love.
Finally, it's here.
The process will be tough, gruelling, heartbreaking , its definitely not to meant easy for me.
Last but not least, thank you my dear, for simply everything .
we learnt , we realise , we moved on and i love you, good bye.
With all the well-wishes.
Good night.
